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Name: Jeb
Country: United States
State: Michigan
Gender: Male
Interests: !@#$%^*(), aaron marsh, afi, antiques, badly drawn boy, beaners, ben gibbard, bowls, bread, brown eyes, brown hair, calibretto, calibretto 13, capitalism, choir, chris carraba, chris conley, church, coffee, coldplay, concerts, conservative, converse, copeland, dance dance revolution, dancing, dashboard confessional, dead end new jersey, death cab for cutie, diet rite, drawing on my hand, driving alone, economics, edited rap cds, emo, evelyn bay, family, frandor skatepark, george bush, girls, goodwill, government, grind king trucks, guitar, homeschool, ice skating, ipath, ipod, jane eyre, jesus, jimmy eat world, joy electric, keane, kris roe, kurt halsey, led zeppelin, local bands, long hair, lyric writing, mae, maggies, mason skatepark, mercury radio theatre, michael jackson, moneen, morality, mxpx, my good, new testament, nixon skatepark, old testament, philosophy, poetry, politics, praying, puma, punk, queen, relationships, ronald reagan, roos, sau, saves the day, singing, skateboard
Expertise: You should watch me eat cookie dough at 3:03 in the morning.
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AIM:  jenova jeb
Member Since:
4/14/2005
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| I'd love to write again.
A week from right now I'll be on my way home from my first year of college.
weird....
I don't even know what to write in this anymore. Maybe this summer it will come more naturally.
I am ready for some reflective time.
Summer, please be sweet.
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| Hmm. I've had a nice night. I've been reading for like... 5 hours or something ridiculous like that. It's really late and I'm quite tired. I'm ready to go back to school and I'm excited to start my new classes. I hope I will like them. I feel like I amfinally becoming recentered. I can so easily become an unbalanced human being. I don't like it much when that happens. Ya know something cool? The fact that Jesus made us all exactly the way we are with a purpose that only we are meant to fill... at least I think so. I like to think of God standing back looking at the whole world and thinking "you know, this world could use some Jeb Malcolm right here". And no matter how difficult it is for me to understand my place, He does. I hate being lost, but I am trying to accept that the things that make me who I am, even the things that may bug others (or just myself, I don't know) are not set-backs but rather personality. For some reason, I don't always appreciate myself, and I just want to for once love myself as much as I love my neighbors... | | |
| I love Donald Miller. He is so good. He's speaking on the 13th in Holland. I wish I could go.
I've had an awesome month at home. I love my family a ton, and seeing old friends has been very needed. I feel like this first semester I've been kinda've trying to find who I am apart from my reputation, apart from my family, apart from unconditional love. It's been kinda've hard. This month has been good. Now I'm ready to go back. I feel rejuvenated, and ready to take on whatever may come.
I need to draw close to God. He's so wise in his dealings with us. It's incredible to see.
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| My oh my. It has been a long time. I know no one ever uses this anymore, but I'm gonna update anyways! A lot has happened since I last updated this, but I'm still me, so not to much is different, just circumstances. I'm down here in Kentucky! Have been for about a 1 1/2 months. College is overall incredible! I have to be honest--I feel like I'm learning a lot about myself. There are a lot of things I thought would be different, and there are things I hadn't expected. One thing that surprises me is that even though I live so far away, I don't feel that a lot of my relationships are going to change as much as I had thought, and that is a real blessing. I love knowing my roots are in Michigan, and that there are people there who know everything about me, appreciate me, and will always be there for me. I only hope I can always be there for them. I have realized that I have the best friends ever. I am blessed. I so often feel like God is raining blessings on my life, and all I can do is smile a little as my eyes glaze and I realize I am loved. And I don't know why--I'm dirty. I'm a sinner. And I forget Him. But He loves me still... And I am thankful. There are some things I feel that aren't too easy though. I feel lonely sometimes. I guess I should say I am lonely, but I don't feel it's wrong or that I'm not supposed to feel that way. The fact is, I have loved. I have loved completely twice in my life. One of those girls is married now. The other has a boyfriend and it seems things are going well. I am excited for both of them! Things didn't end up the way I thought it should either of the times, but that's OK. I see now in both situations how much better God's plans are than mine. God used those two relationships in my life to strengthen my relationship with Him more than I could have considered possible. Can I be friends with them the way I was? No... But I think in a way, I will always be friends with them even if we don't talk much. It's because I knew them, and they knew me. And both relationships were different, but in both of them, I at least feel I was close to someone. Now College has rolled around. In all honesty, I feel like I've experienced enough in my life for quite a few people. That's OK, but I am scarred in a lot of ways. I'm still sad sometimes. I'm also so glad for this extra time of getting to know my Jesus all by myself, with no one else distracting me or deserving my attention. I think that's what heaven's gonna be like... I think in this life, Jesus only shows himself a little bit at a time, and that is only to the people who are desperate for Him. And even though He can show Himself some, our relationship takes place in a broken system, with a broken world, and we ourselves are broken, so our relationships with Him can't really be what they were once meant to be. I think when we can see Him, and talk to Him face to face, we will be the luckiest people in the universe! I know I will, for one, want nothing more than to be with Him... That'll be awesome. It's weird being at Asbury in a few ways. For one, it's odd not having a reputation for anything... at all. It's good because I am being able to find myself (I know, it sounds cliche, but whatev) without worrying about those who look up to me or expect something from me. The other odd but awesome thing is being surrounded by guys who are further along in their walks with God than I am! It's nice to rest... It's nice to have Bible study and let someone else do the praying and stuff. It's a blessing to take a break and just learn from their wisdom and examples. I like it a lot. I miss all of you people back home... I miss Teenworks. I miss my family. I miss Concord. I miss Vessels. It's not that I'm looking back all the time being miserable that I can't go back, it's just that those are the people/things/times/ that have made me who I am and it means a lot to me. And now I'm beginning another chapter here! Pretty cool. Anyways, that's me. Life as of late. Asbury is great! It's amazing because I really feel God hand-picked it for me. It fits better than I think any College could have. I love it when He opens doors and when you walk in them you are amazed at how well He knows you, and how much He loves you to bless you. | | |
| I love this album. I love this band, in fact. Such good stuff. It's been awhile since 'Sing the Sorrow', and now DecemberUnderground reminds me of how sweet they are.
Yesterday was the Coast Guard Festival. Totally sweet.
Tomorrow I am leaving for Chicago with my family. My Cousin, Nick, is coming with us. That'll be really sweet. I'm excited! He's gonna stay for another day or two. Then I'm planning to hit Lansing for a few days, so everyone get ready.
I love coffee. I have this great creamer that is vanilla and caramel. mmmm. It's so amazing.
I love reading.
I love music.
I love good movies too.
I leave for Asbury in like...10 days? Move in is the 17th, but I may go down a day earlier so my fam can chill with my sis and bro.
Hah. Life is beautiful. | | |
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